Even a Double Dose Isn't Enough Today

Do you remember the promise he asked me to make?  The one about not letting myself assume the worst?

HA!

I don't have a lot to say today.  This picture sums up may day pretty well.

He wants to remain friends, but says we can't be lovers anymore.  He has to remain faithful to his wife.

I'm sure I'll have plenty to say about that soon. 

But today...... 

Today I miss the ability to lose myself in images of us on that sailboat. 

Today I feel like my heart has been ripped out and set on fire.

Today I am sick at my stomach and can't even begin to get the tears to stop.

Today I'm kicking myself for believing in US.

DD