I need it hard. I need to be fucked hard, slammed into. I need to turn up the volume on the stereo as loud as it will go so that the hard rock throbs inside my temples. I need to get on an open stretch of highway and see how high I can push the needle on that speedometer, both hands on the wheel, 90, 100, 120, 130, faster. I need to chain smoke. I need to shoot heroin. I need to run and run and run. I need to scream, stand on the edge of huge canyon and scream until my lungs bleed. I need to hurt. I need to break something, shatter it, hurl it against a wall. I need to be fucked.
I just need.